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still awake
Well I was going to try to sleep, but I can’t. So maybe writing and getting “out” of my mind will help me and I will be able to go to sleep soon after. It has been an uneventful few days for the most...
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the utter agony and misery
The past few days have not gotten any easier… as I had hoped. Anger, rage and fear possessed my mind, body and soul yesterday, and eventually turned into apathy. Once I was in bed, it felt like...
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confusion… lost… darkness…
Heavy heart. Tightness in my chest… yet again. It has only been a couple of days since my extreme panic attack. Not ready for another one just yet. This has never happened before. Usually after a panic...
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Not to baby, that was the decision… and I still stand by it
I know my husband and I made a choice and it was the best choice for us. But it still pisses me off sometimes. Especially when I am watching TV and everyone seems to be having a baby. Or when I am on...
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My Yearly Reminder :(
Ahhh… It comes around every year, and every year I am reminded of what I will never have. Mothers Day. The commercials, the Facebook posts… I get to see it everywhere. It feels like I am being stabbed...
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Journal Entries 4
Was having problems with self identity not a happy camper, was hating life very much. (excuse the language)
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Journal Entries 11
Ever feel like this? Again this was written a couple of years ago. I still feel like this sometimes, but for the most part, I am okay with waking up. For a while I was doing really good, then I...
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This Monster
This Monster Anger Where does this come from I feel it within So angry This Monster Rears its ugly head It doesn’t like to hide It doesn’t like to be suppressed It wants to come out It wants to scare...
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I am NOT well
I will try to make as much sense as I can, but my mind is in quite a tizzy. This kind of all started sometime last week. I have had my days mixed up, not sure what day is what. At least I know what...
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TRIGGER WARNING: EXTREME LANGUAGE
Rage Fury Hatred Death Kill Burn Maim Blind Red Rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage rage...
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